Our little peanut

Yesterday I got to hear the baby's fast heartbeat and see our little one on the ultrasound. It was so amazing to get to see this little human bouncing around in me. It definitely brought me back to the reality that we're having a baby.

I know that sounds weird, but hear me out. This pregnancy was a complete surprise for Michael and I. Our "plan" (I say that very loosely) was to wait 3 to 5 years till we started a family. I wanted to get through Nursing school and work for a little while, and Michael wanted to enjoy being "marred" before he embarked on a new season of life.

So when the little stick said pregnant... well... I was shocked. Maybe a little bummed, to be completely and transparently honest. Definitely reevaluating how our life was strategically planned out. So we proceeded to call our families and friends with the news, mostly to be encouraged that this was a wonderful new season we were walking into.

Two months later. I've finally gotten over all-day sickness, still tired, and seeing my body grow in places it never has before. :) I'm excited that I'm pregnant. Haven't really digested that I'm a very soon-to-be Mom.

That is until the ultrasound. BAM! There's that little one on the screen. It looks like a human (no alien or reptile resemblance anymore). It moves. A lot. Jumping up and down. I see it's feet and toes and little arms and head and eyelids. It's a baby! And this little one will be under our care, protection, loving, guiding, mentoring, disciplining, hugging, kissing, and teaching (among many other things that I'm sure I haven't mentioned) in just a few short months.

Wow. That's a lot to digest. I'm going to be a mom. This little ankle-biter is mine.

But what's more amazing, is the grace I see the Lord give me to walk through this. I see him fashioning me into a mom. He's been putting wonderful moms into my life to encourage me. He's given me the support of an excellent husband. He's giving me the strength to raise this child with out the continual presence of my husband, 'cause I will definitely need it. He's getting me excited. He's providing resources to learn what I need to learn. And He's given me two awesome Moms to pray for me, encourage me, be excited with me, give instruction to me, and to give the wisdom that comes with raising 3 kids of their own.

I'm a blessed woman. Lord, thank you. Please continue to encourage me and excite my heart as this child is growing in me. Fashion me into the mom you want me to be. Amen.